Your Kingdom come

Matthew 6:9-14

Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be your name. Your kingdom done, your will be done, on earth as it is in Heaven. Give us today our daily bread. And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the evil one. For if you forgive other people for they have sin against you, your Heavenly Father will also forgive you.

Pray in Jesus name, Amen.

I can forgive him. However I do want things to change. If I couldn't end it, I need some changes. I cannot waste my life on him. I have a work, I need rest. If not I deserve a social life or something else. I am going to refuse things to a great extent.

That would make me a bad daughter, an ungrateful child, a selfish human, a hell deserving creature, a heartless animal. Then so be it.

Life itself is usually already harsh on people and the least you can do is not to make it worse for others. He spend 76 years in his life and fail to learn that.

Skip that, talk about something that is so confusing I couldn't explain or comprehend it myself.

This Tuesday, I showed up in the RHB centre located at Jalan Tun Razak to obtain my offer letter. First time ever taking MRT. I feel that MRT is fine but it is not as good as expected.

Crux is I went there and  I look at the offer letter, salary so tiny after deduction for EPF etc. Then there will be exam to be taken. One day training then next day exam. There are lots of things and KTM sucks x 9000000.

I guess I get a panic attack. Should I go chamber instead? Am I into bank, really? I try rolling a dice, or many dice together, I mean there is online virtual dice rolling. One moment I thought yes I leave, just that. Since the HR staff said I don't have to pay anything, not even the medical report since it is the bank protocol to do all that.

Eventually I spent another 2 hours there just tot think about it and made the same choice to stay. Within 6 months probation I can just leave the company by giving 2 weeks notice. That is fair enough for me. Everything is new, it could leads to many different places.

I have to be brave and I can always chamber in the future. It is the right thing to do. I am still trying to discern the voice from deep inside my soul.

Good job for today and there is nothing wrong to be extra precautions when making such big decision.

Good luck buddy, and see you soon.


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